I got sick yesterday with a horrible stomach bug. I consider myself a tough kind of girl and I just ignore any pain or sickness I may have and just jump right out of it. Well, I tried to be my tough self and go to work cause that's just how I am. I don't like to call in and make the night harder for everyone else that i work with. So, I went to work, and tried ignoring my body, and it didn't go so well. So 10 minutes into work, I HAD to talk myself into going home.
Something about me feeling like I failed someone really gets to me. I don't like letting other people down and I DO NOT like asking for help. It's just part of my personality. I like to think I can do everything on my own. 2 hrs after being home and not keeping literally ANYTHING down, I started to feel my blood sugar levels dropping into a sickening place. I tried to get it up because I starting having the signs of low blood sugar: dizzy, shaky, couldn't think straight and intense abdominal pains ON TOP of having the stomach flu.
Like I said I consider myself to be a tough kind of girl, but at this moment, even I knew I couldn't do it on my own, and the last time I felt like that was when I got terribly sick with the swine flu and I had to go get extended help from the hospital.WHICH I DO NOT like going to the doctors office let alone hospital! So I know that when I feel like something is wrong and I can't fight it on my own, It's serious. I sent Jesse to the store for the 4th time, and was just thinking to myself, that I may need an I.V or something of the sort. not so much for the stomach flu but for my blood sugar so that it wouldn't go any lower and cause bigger problems.
It was after I was thinking about that, that I felt like I needed help from a higher power, the Priesthood. I haven't had a priesthood blessing in 2 years ever since I've been out of my house. Which is my FAULT, because I wasn't asking for them. But the fact that it crossed my mind, I know it was Heavenly Father reminding me That HE over any doctor or physician had the power to make me whole and complete.
When Jesse finally came home, He saw that I wasn't getting much better, and asked me if I wanted a priesthood blessing. I was grateful for that because it made me feel like we both knew and had faith that the Power of the priesthood would help me.
As soon as he placed his hands on my head, I could feel the security and strength of the Priesthood. I started to cry because I knew that the lord was speaking to me. I also got emotional because I realized that after 3 years of knowing, struggling, rejoycing and overcoming, with my husband, this was the first priesthood blessing that I recieved from him.
I felt a closeness to the Savior and to Jesse. I was so proud and humbled by this blessing. It made me understand and appreciate the power of the priesthood more. It made me SEE what the Lord can do to us if we let him. I think this moment will be remembered and very dear to me. More than anything what touched me most was seeing the priesthood being used in my home, and through the man that I love with all my heart. We've been in the lowest of places and now after repenting and overcoming, I feel so humbled to see how far we've come with the help of our Savior.
from going without the priesthood for a time, I have truly gained an appreciation for it that is easily taken for granted. If the priesthood is in your home, thank The Lord each day because life truly is richer, greater, and more secure with it. If you do not currently have the Priesthood in your home, put yourself in the position to have it exercised in your home whether it be through a church leader or your husband.
I am nothing without the Lord, and I know that. I have made it a goal to CHOOSE to be humble instead of being COMPELLED. I'm grateful the lord offers us experiences, good and bad to help us understand our personal need for him both physically and spiritually!
